lesson plans and phonecalls

first day without her...
felt weird walking from my car to the staffroom...felt macam i lost my shadow...owh well...everything was well though..my lesson today went well...but guess what happened when i walked back from my class? my supervisor came to give me a surprise visit!!! he wasn't there to come and observe me, he just wanted to see how i am doing...hehehe...he gave me such a fright by being there unannounced...showed him my folder, my lesson plans, the notes and student's homework and classwork marks...luckily i was prepared...

note to self: please write down the evaluation as soon as you get back to the staffroom.

my colleagues have been very helpful especially my cooperating teacher (CT) Bee Hong...she has been giving me tips and advices non-stop...i have to remember to get her a nice present before i leave the school...driving home alone from school is hard to get used to...i usually hang around the school and leave after 1pm...but today i punched out like 10 mins after the bell rang...entah...i felt like leaving the staffroom as soon as i can...

oh btw...she sent me a text message today after class to tell me that she is ok and has landed safely at sydney airport...i was so happy to hear that...i am also happy to know that it doesn't cost me much to call her on her prima (ia roaming!!! gotta love it!)! hehehe...we spoke on the fone twice today..hehehe...i miss her...im glad that she left with her parents...made me feel so much better...anyway...have two lesson plans to plan before i sleep...

adios amigos

=)

And I don’t know where you went when you left me but
Says here in the water you must be gone by now
I can tell somehow
One hand on the trigger of a telephone
Wonderin' when the call comes
Where you say it’s alright
You got your heart right

Tonight she left...and i won't get to see her for at least 3 months...everything was fine until i saw her back shrinking away as she was walking away from me...slowly disappearing from my sight...everything felt so heavy...my breathing, my steps, my heart...couldn't stop from looking over my shoulders...wishful thinking...*sigh*... but i shouldn't cry...i promised her...i kept my promise...
driving home alone was the single most difficult thing i have to go through tonight...no more shall i see her next to me, smiling back at me...or no more shall i see her sleeping soundly, ever so peaceful next to me as i drive her home...3 months till i see that beautiful smile...for now i have to hold back the tears...

Maybe I’ll sleep inside my coat and
Wait on your porch ‘till you come back home
Oh, right
I can’t find a flight

Tomorrow i start the day without her...no more expecting a 'good morning sweetie' from her on msn...no more picking her up to go to school together...*sigh*...i'll try to make the best out of tomorrow...everything will be fine...i'll make sure of it...tomorrow the countdown starts...=) sayang...if you're reading this i miss you like crazy...and i want you to know that everything will be fine...and i hope u will find your journey there to be pleasant and safe...i'll be waiting for that call aight? love you...i will spend the rest of tonight finishing my lesson plans and entering marks for my form 2H...can't wait to see you in my dreams...=)